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What's the point of life if it don't change
It almost scared me how everything stayed the same
For the last days before I quit out of my job
I was so ready to leave that it almost killed me
It felt a little bit like a deja vu
Let the bulb burn out & start to bid adieu
Something's will be just alright
And other's will burn to a withered light
But the ruin will never fade
I make of memory a new sense of real
For the sake of changing seasons I gave up the wheel
Still imagine a life where they're still in it
But I imagine a lot of stuff some of it just stories
Comfortable thinking to make medicine go down easy
What's the point of minds if they don't change?
Chemically imbalanced or plain just all the same
For the last months before I quit out of life
I was so scared to leave it almost killed me
It felt a little bit like starting over
Truth to a blank just like the luck of clovers
But without a re-spec it's so hard to go it different
Just another lake to take to while I'm away & drifting
But the same will not fade so easy
I make of memory a new sense of real
For the sake of changing seasons I gave up the wheel
Still imagine a life where they're still in it
But I imagine a lot of stuff some of it just stories
Comfortable thinking to make medicine go down easy
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I've been thinking lately
About how easy that I have it
But easy can make it feel like
The walls are closing in
So I gotta grab a hammer
And break my ease up into pieces
Like a favorite pair of pants it tears
And rips at seams 'till you can't wear them
One day will be the last and you won't even realize it
Because habit and routine have their way of sinking claws in
The life that I dream is always one day away from current
Sixteen
And change
Twenty-sixteen
Lost flames
Burning flowers for a girl who should have never had a name
My way of seeing time has been shaped by hurt & disgrace
I've been thinking lately
That I haven't got much plans
And that indecision feels like
The ground is peeling back
So I gotta grab a tree branch
And get a grip material & mental
I've got some bullshit on this plate
And there's not much to do to compensate
There's not a place to buy a pair of pants
That feels like it fits my mood any more
So when I wear them will I tear them
And never look cool or slick again
The way that I wanna look
Is always one piece of cloth from current
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Idealism is such a dead scene
When you got spinning storms & rising seas
The world needs a big kick in its ass
And while we're here, I need a kick in the teeth
Futurism, you know, is a dead barren dream
Because if we could invent away poverty
We'd let it line pockets while millions go starving
And they say folk's become such a dead place
Can't really argue when it left with no trace
But if we have acoustic guitars
Or anything strummed from where we believe
Songs, you know, are the main language we speak
And if we could pluck & pick away poverty
There wouldn't be such a thing as starving
But nonetheless
Things get worse
Despite it all
Shit just gets worse
So how did we get to this point?
Idealism for fools and utopia for suckers
Where are my comrades' hearts forged?
In the embers of solicitude?
And not those, hearts broken
By the tragedy of living life now
I can't front, I'm there
On the frontlines of the desperate
Leaving sighs like wilting flowers
When life is just to turn a profit
And that alienation gets misplaced
So vampires live unnoticed
And because of that
The world gets sadder
And in this life
Things just get sadder
Despite the best
Gloom is a constant
And undying light
Is falling unconscious
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Artistic aspirations
Don't mean a thing for now
There are bigger fish in the frying sea
Things that we wanted that it feels like there'll never ever be
The shape of the future just a fog of uncertainty
But that's alright
If I never stop to think about it
It's alright
When I never leave my bedroom
It's alright
If I disconnect my internet
It's alright
Except it's really not alright
Been starting to feel lately that I can't bring myself to to think
Not for lack of time but just initiative
It's boring how the only things that ever get time are emotionally obvious
Because things more complex then age 8 have not ever been worth it
I really can't remember a time I understood
Either ADD or ASD or something else that's wringing me out
I'll roll until my pencil's blunt & treat my heart like that
Kick this somber sickness in the gut until I pass out heaving
But it's alright
Yeah right, I think I'm telling stories
'Cuz it's alright
Only if you got the dirty money to escape
It's fucked up
That privilege can be insulating
Like you just live another life & forever close your eyes
But it's alright
It's alright
It won't be this bleak forever, right?
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Music From Big Stink
03:27
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I have a dream of
A basement in Sagurties
Or Woodstock, Hunter Mountain, or something like that
Where no storms will
Touch the instruments
And no one will hear the noise that cracks the walls and mattresses
30 square feet and bursting pipes
Are the most punk thing you could ever need
Oh I dream and I dream and I dream
To fill all these gaps in reality
Like a dip in a creek running down Sugarloaf
A place Neil Young would have forgotten about
Old hippies quit but no we won't do it
Sleep at the hotel Dylan and know nothing is really sacred
Electric guitar making thunderstorms of song
The drum & bass kick in just like summer squalls
Then we sleep the night in beds warm enough
Sheets to our chin, hand to hand, hair to hip
Eye shut so tight, open to perfect dark
An backyard oven bird nest getting choked up by the snow
And you know
It'll be easy to get some sleep
I had a dream of
A place proudly standing
Amongst armies of ants and bees and besieged by bears
Where in the quiet nights
Punk & folk songs make for lullabies
And concerts get held nightly at a place where stars are screaming
"Attention to Earth, my egg & my child
You're in the presence of sky, so start to pay attention"
And I will.
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Back in 2012 I had a song I never finished
About all the people who should've been friends
Looking back it feel so stupid & so trivial
When the whole world was still in my grasp
So write that on my wall
Make sure to mark a memory
Because if I can't express in song
I might forget just what it means to me
And I don't wanna forget
Like writing on the door in a room I'd never been
The smallest things ring out in the loudest way
Collecting all the memories like marbles in a bag
Shining gems imperfect and softly tumbled in my hand
The wall is a document through time
But personal, a scribe of life and constant moving
But I don't even have yearbook autographs
Hell, I don't even have any old yearbooks
Because I had given up up on social life
So soon to crack it seems so stupid
But I was severe, a rock floating sternly
No one touches me and I don't touch nobody
If a door goes off its hinges
It no longer leads to anywhere
So where did all the thoughts go
When the wall cracked & people split?
Did they clean up their act
And get a good job or fall off the track?
I really don't know
And they probably don't know either
Because I've caked my walls with posters
And it's impossible to see beneath them
And that's not weird to see these days
At least I do not think so.
'Cuz we're all covering up one thing or another
Back in 2016 I had a thought I didn't complete
About changing up direction & messing up the pieces
Looking back it seems so inspired
Being clean enough to wanna make a change
So write that on my wall for me
Hands too weak hack it
Because when I can't make a verse
Everything tends towards turning shit
And it's not what I wanna see
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7. |
Not Punk, But Everything
03:41
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It's such a mess to get this all in order
When the streets are filling up with blood
Never seen so much ACAB or red roses but still
We have liberals pulling a for safety we can longer have
Building safety off violence like a house made of glass
It can look kinda pretty but it won't ever last
With no justice, no peace, infected with disease
A cough drop for COVID, a bandage for police
But that don't work like a burnt flag
Or a closed fist in the air
And we have riots on the ground
But regression for elections
What do I mean peace it's illusory
I'm 27 years old so it's only a dream
So, you look for comfort like a holy grail
A tragic quest beset with expectation to fail
We can deal with that but not the terror of existence
So we resign ourselves to myth & ignorance
Stories & fiction & narratives we like
A chasm of darkness cut by small tendrils of light
And what could I expect?
All this country has is fantasy
Otherwise it would collapse
Under the weight of crimes it commits
Be more like yr' dad boy
Put that nose to the grindstone
Life's kind of an embarrassment
But you're still the most embarrassing
Sore back from 20 hours working
Because it's too much of my precious time
8 hours for sleep
2 hours for work
And 14 for whatever fuckin' suits you
You are more important than your work
And I know
That seems kinda crazy
But I guess that's punk fer 'ya
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Practiced my creation
Chasing a dopamine rush
But it's never satisfying
Nothing's every good enough
Made off like a bandit
Steeling myself into rust
It is always mystifying
How nothing's ever good enough
I remember times
Getting hyped only for birthdays
It's not like I was a kid
But looking back it sure feels fitting
Karaoke & castella
Cake like clouds so sweet to feel
Times I've dropped & years I've left out
On the counter I'm sure they've rot by now
Meanwhile if I clear this birthday
At best a bittersweetly swallowed pill
Each year only makes the right way
More narrow & closed in still
All it takes is moments
For my whole brain to fall to shit
And to cycle back to old points
That I had never bothered fix
Despondence & flailing
The mediocrity of this shtick
So if I break on 28
At best I won't be dead by then
Either way I know I'm not thinking straight
So far from peace & so far from zen
Yeah, yeah, yeah
There are people who love me
But I'll bet you that it was a habit
And I get that my writing's not great
My rhymes don't follow in proper fashion
But it's my snow storm & perfect weather
And I know, I get that it's not making sense
My way's not given to common parlance
Speaking is lies and writing's even more so
Can't fit in anywhere where the people are
If I ever talk I'll start to lose my patience
To be unreal would be such of a blessing
To be unbecome would be simply amazing
Yeah, yeah, yeah
There are people who love me
But I'll bet you that it was a habit
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I know I'm lying to you know
But I had tell the lie to me first
Yeah, yeah, yeah
It is getting real boring
But that boredom put me in the ground fist
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Cynical assholes
Make cyclical problems
Like talking down
And making miasma
Your praxis rotted
Being a nothing master
Makes nothing worth it
And the world's a bit bleaker
I'd rather strap a cape
On a rock and let it fly off
Or build a boat of paper
And sail it across the ocean
We all, we all need a single germ to believe in
Or we're dead but playing alive
Walking corpses - heartbeat swan dive
Anger free radicals
Radically undoing
Revolutionary tracts
And acts of resistance
To make this lot lighter
But for the darkness
Go us to a brighter & better tomorrow
I'd rather strap a faith
To Sun & Moon and pray on that one
Leave religion in rock piles
A church in dirt & hills & bird songs
Wasted time in 20's
Getting mad at shit that didn't matter
I wanna make it up
But that lava still lives inside of me
I know it's getting hard to even start to be myself
When I don't even know who they are anymore
I swear, I swear, I swear
The jerks will inherit the Earth
And they're gaining more & more ground everyday
I really, really don't want to slip into their ranks
But they got the story to them
And can even make sense
But we all need less, regardless
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From your front door
To the end of your street
You can find a whole world
And it can feel complete
But between butterflies & lizards
Other kids & angry neighbors
You won't find many who will ever tell
When the police car drives by
But you're not breaking any rules
It can seem almost comforting
And that feeling can feel cool
But between your parents & your teachers in class
And other people who you listen to
There's nobody to tell about the robbers & cops
For the green lawn crew
To the tough and daring-do
Keep that ice-cool in your mind
And your belly filled with orange rinds
They'll take it & wear down the grit
'Till you get all lonely and in the pits
But we can all do well and I hope to see
No gods, no masters, no bedtimes, we are free
If you try to go
I'll just try not to give
If you grip a brick
I'll see to the hand going flying
If you grow up
Don't you dare outgrow this phase
Because it's something eternal -
The laws that break at every glance of love
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Collect more guns
Make for the mountains
I'll not get canned foods
I'll just not follow humans
'Cuz honestly what the fuck's
With this degradation
The rich, fat, and appealing
Cannot be easily resisted
I've been getting paranoid -
Millennial anxiety
Wish kids of today could tend to tomorrow
But future got handed to the irresponsible
And we can't even make the heads roll
Everything reduced to pure protocol
Collect more food
Forget about your children
They're staying inside 'till the monsters start receding
But honestly they're stuck
In dialectics of power
The cold-hearted machine heads
Should never be respected
Open up! The knife cuts businesses!
Take vials of blood for the owners of capital
Bodies for pits & the poor swallowing shit
The callousness of this
All just makes me feel fucking sick
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Dragged out syllables
And trading smiles
Like Pokémon cards -
Strictly transactional
I saw a show
Saw films & TV
That made me start to think of love
Techniques & feelings
My denial of being
The fluttery old feeling
Buried deep inside my heart
I think I'd like another shot
But forget having another shot
If it means to be seen and recognized
And I think that's a bit too much for me
I'll break down into anxiety
You know
It's wrong to say that you're in love
If you don't mean it
Otherwise it can be pretty mean
So I'll hold up and hold my tongue
And give it up and swear off love
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Cavern Dweller
02:12
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I wish the rain would fall forever
And march would bend to endless circles
Sink this whole world & everyone in it
For to the terminal we derive much meaning
If there was a date to put on expiration
I wouldn't waste my time in garages
Pissing away all my working hours
There would be a sense of meaning in mortality
2016 was 3 weeks ago
And 2014 was 15 years
And I can't grasp the meaning
But I'm hearing breathing my fears
Like oxygen & nitrogen, but there is nothing noble
About this lot of living except that it's a waste
And not an active state of violence
Possums play dead
Fake their deaths and build up cred
Birds sing simple tunes
Fly up high above balloons
Bees all keep things flowing
While humans don't know where they're going
But that's not me, that is not
I've stuck mired in mud
I'm a cavern dweller
This is us, we're all stuck down
Scavenging through the dry dirt
A parable so passionless
Flat expressions of all our hurt
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Walk to a cliff
And stare out over the edge
Watch dimensions swirling
Like you're watching the end
Of everything
Start of a fresh new crop
But look too long
And you'll start to see stars
And you'll maybe go crazy
Or simply see clear
So clear that it blinds and you spin off in circles
I had a break in a target
That I didn't know
And I wondered to myself
Where it all started to go wrong
But where things go wrong
I get tougher tissue
Maybe I'll get tough and wrestle the reigns
That day will be like throwing horseshoes
To a pole like my spine with an aim like my mind
And it will make sense to cry
When I am broken in half
Back in college
There was a girl didn't know
She left me alone in my feelings
And we never even talked
But I thought about her
'Till she just disappeared
For good, to dust
No name, it's just the same
But I put in song because
It reminds of when I still dreamed
Back when I was so fresh & so green
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Hi, I'm Little King Trash Mouth. I play ridiculous and sometimes even good songs on guitar and other instruments. I've had too many monikers. Cute firebomb, red roses, ACAB, decolonized and ecological political parity. Most of this music is from manic episodes. ... more
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