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Patience As A Virtue
02:00
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I'm not sure what's expected of me
Should I roll over and revoke the independent strain within me?
You mean to say that strength and respect ain't enough
And that we're all different partitions of cloth?
That can never reconcile, can never get along
Like you wanna put the “solid” in solidarity
But that ain't like me all wind and wuthering
Wandering without an answer
Should I give up now – throw around
My false fag cis privilege and let that define me?
And let that deny me all the while ---
This ain't my boot on her throat
I didn't erase her queerness – you just imagined it
I'm not your enemy – that was your reductive insularity
If you know me, I'm like sugar and honey
But allow me my coon claws or I'll lose my patience
You saw me before I did, I'd say the “P-word”
But, oh I'm white, oh never mind – I guess it can't be.
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The leaves and grass are thicker down this way
To the point it's like plastic points prickling under palm trees
And the animals ain't the same
This place was 3 hours away
I'm on another planet
Where the sky explodes like ending
And the clouds are like cotton candy and sweet
The air thick, weather hot, glowing green & pink
And I see more lizards
Than I see bees right now
And nights here ain't like peace
Just a new side of disease
It would be easy to be a bee
A space, some work, and honey but that wouldn't make me happy
'Cuz a bee can't just be it's got to keep it's sting at the ready
I ain't nasty violence
And I've got a life to lead
I'm sick of people dominating
And neglecting what others believe
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Simple solutions, rhetoric as identity
Such a personal crisis is no reason to burden the burning
'Cuz if I'm to believe in anything than I can't put trust in trends
Pick up any book and every person's page says something new
I only really can know what I think but together, what can we do?
Just to close oneself of and justify nothing but you -
Since when is that fucking OK?
Filled out enemy caricature empty in every sense
Simplification yields dogma and danger
Violence on every street gets met with violence everywhere
We're the fools of history like a pie right to the face
Sorry, but everything is your fucking privilege
But it's still a long race you'll try to make to the floor
Because there's gotta be a bulls-eye for a clear “us and them”
And respectability ain't my politics anymore
And I don't really care how this was meant to be
Because the first step was always learn to respect “me”
But it ain't a pledge that I'm gonna make
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I removed me from myself
And put myself in softer shoes
I imagined being a slug
I imagined winters in Canada
And how fucking cold they must be
I was all admiration
And when you spoke I couldn't speak too good back
I mumbled about “macho bullshit”
And the virtue of “sissy crust”
I had 1 million more things to say
I felt like someone but what does that matter?
It's more like a star shot out of my socked foot
And carried me smiling back to the subway
I wanted her fury that violence and fire
And a smile as nice along these lines
It's like she was multitudes
And there's nothing I respect more than that
In this divisive world of abstract roles
I can't relate to them
But I could relate to her
And it's not always so clean and alone
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I grew up during a time
When widespread online accessibility
Was a growing trend in American households
Where little kids would go to websites without parental consent
It was a place pitch black in fucking in darkness -
It was a place that was separate & pure
Where bullshit television and mass media appeals
Couldn't touch the fucking troll group where I was when I was 13 years old
And I didn't know then, I didn't even care
That it was like defecting and rejecting all the garbage sold to us
Fuck this noise man
I broke a cycle just to be here
And I knew it was something
But I didn't know just what
But with normality it's simply gone
Now I'm alive in a moment of time
Where online space no longer has a special glow
The wording of subway ads and miserable banter
And the total omniscience of social media
It speaks to a plot of bought up & sold out
Eternal September now in a harder swing than ever
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6. |
All I Trust Is Toshiba
00:59
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My politics is shitposting
The argument's against myself
Strictly speaking – incomprehensible
How do you decode a pile of trash?
I don't think I'm here to try...
So fuck your bullshit & my lies
A journey of discovery begins with steps
Before receding to a crawl
I guess everything's gotta break someday
Shit, I'd even say that helps me along
But I need a fucking way to call my dad past sundown
I need pavement to a stable core
And all I trust is untested.
All I believe is insanity.
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Five days in a Mimai hotel
And we ain't got nothing to show
Except a mess almost left behind
And some despair on our heels
But I dig the air, palm trees, and leaves
And this sweet land open space
One I can sleep or hold hands with
And taking it slow & clean in Tallahasse
I fixed up this guitar
Just like I need a voice for songs I can't sing
Like to distract me from things with real sting
I waited for the call to end
Don't know what it meant at all
But this is not your dream rekindling
I don't want any tears
Because I feel better when you shine through all this rain
Five days now you have been wrecked
But she's no problem now
I can't teach myself what the word “gone” means
But I've gone and done it anyway
There's no opinion, oh never mind
Flag waving sense got awfully broke
Sunset, funset, I think I know now
You'd rather be happy than make any sense
I waited for the 11th
Can't play video games forever
And get rejected from pet sitting
I listened for a Saturday
'Cuz if it's OK for KK than it damn well works for me
But I can't make my life that easily
And I wonder how long a fake can last
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Fuck the spring it never lasts
Summer's always 'round the corner to kick my fucking ass
Always want for different weather 'cept rare days where I am happy
Where we'll go outside
Wander along Canal
Suck down fruity freezepops and wonder:
“How the hell would the world matter save for right now?”
There are no answers and no noise beyond traffic
Just to remind us of the closet state we're in
'Cuz you know New York is like a giant queer deception
You expect special and different until all the money's dissipated
Then like concrete to keep your feet in shitty ground
It promises the world to you until you finally stick around
But New York City abuses while the world is on display
It tickles everybody's fancy while it forgets your fucking name
It draws a line of chalk around your old self and makes creatures who compete
For a single scrap of authenticity
It's a wind we can't abate that brings us along a way
Which we may like or abhor but it's a fight all the same
It's a struggle to stay chill like a freezepop and be anything
That can't survive intense sunlight and speak again the same
But I am stuck and stagnant so let's suck this thing down fast
I've got about a year left – let's not get too comfortable.
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9. |
Crescent & Codebreakers
01:57
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I break things – it's my natural state
Like feelings, walls, and my shit life
I crack myself open when things get tough
End up halfway between a shotgun shell & stand-up
It's 50 MPH in a residential zone
And you gotta make the quick break or end up with broken bones
So call it a u-turn when I don't know what I'm doing
Don't worry if shit's gonna break because I got something brewin'
'Cuz if got here & I ain't quite dead yet
I've got friends in low places & I'd even make the bet
That they could break me out of jams or jails just the same
And teach me how break the ratio when we're at the cusp to share the blame
I ain't in danger & we ain't in trouble yet
I may drive a bit like an anarchist but I just gotta jet
...Right outta here I go,
Back to the northern hills
Where my mind
Just fucking snaps.
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10. |
Bugbites & Bluster
01:15
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If my body should wither in this time
Around the space between 21 & 22
I ask that you not
Clean my legs, wash my hair
Leave my heart anywhere but in the forest for all the little bugs
All my friends have missed the sunshine
In a sense it left years ago and has been neglecting us
All this time
But Miami or Brooklyn have been the blunt side of a whip
Sliding across our bug bitten skin
It's funny how happiness lives relative to
A full fledged childhood imagination
That got left off in the sand
Well the ocean has risen
At least once in 11 years
A shovel can push right through it
The question is – will you need bug spray?
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It's just too bad
That the state speaks strong words
And civility becomes entropy
It's not like I'm here to say
That independence makes me better but it sure makes my life easier
Was I totally off
In thinking anarchy divorced from this?
I didn't think it was the same old shit...
I don't live life to satisfy
And cover my fuck-ups with ass-kissing lies
A dreamer of myself between dominoes of martyrdom
I'll make myself better while everyone else wonders what they even are
What contains her now
If they need a change for later
They need to shift pieces around until their bullshit politics treat them well
Selective subjection says:
“I've been honest with myself
And I'm comfortable with all my walls”
Rules change and bend with
Time & events & if you're human
You're a different form from 14 & 30
But I don't understand
Laying doctrines in rock & defining “I” in absolute
I don't live life to satisfy
And cover my fuck-ups with ass-kissing lies
A dreamer of myself between dominoes of martyrdom
I'll make myself better while everyone else wonders what they even are
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It's getting too tough to sing these songs
'Cuz I don't feel now like I did a year ago
Where everything glowed with hot energy
And I definitely don't feel like 2 years ago
Where everything was so crazy new
And I scribbled out of excitement
And I believed in everything – like possibilities
Now I believe in somethings – like you, and it, and me
But I can't take a stress bomb that wants to take my fucking head
And I can't be a free person until I take off all these chains
But most of all I can't be happy unless you can meet me there
And this isn't cute – it's a twisted fucking reality
So chill out, chill out
Treat this place like a sun pearl
And relax, relax
To the beat of traffic's heart pulsing and racing
I can't drive for long
Because I want our hearts intact
Just so our fucking failures can destroy them
And we can regroup, rebuild & fuck off again
Yeah it seems like life's at a big stand still
It is – we've been fooled just once of 1 million times
But it's so funny how control works
Sometimes it looks just like auto pilot
...but we think that we're in control
So lemme let go of the wheel here – let's see the difference it makes
Bend this swollen wood relation back until it finally breaks
But I can't swallow a duress pill if I just makes me upset
I can't handle distress when it smokes my diplomat
And I really can't be happy unless you can meet me there
This isn't nice & tidy – it's just a stupid cycle that I got caught in
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“Nothing will be the same again”
That's a mantra I repeat over & over again
To explain away the shit that goes down all the time
It's like a joke – to think in absolutes
Like I'm absolutely lost, and have been for a while
I'd even say that I'm going on three years
And for at least four years before
It's endless & it's almost painful
The patterns of process play
With blank space infesting a supposed to be full life
With hot breath & long languid vowels
That intone long, sad, & empty nouns
But I wish they could say a fucking thing
That wasn't me being self-obsessed
One more time around -
I could try to break cycles
And on the second time around -
I could try to be a better boy
Three or so times around -
I could try to catch a singular
Moment like a firefly & keep it in my palm
But moments disappear & all that we have left are objects
It's not for the faint of heart
To try and claim the “you” you oughta be
Being so very far behind
And playing out so unidealistically
I'm not gonna lie that I've found the recipe
Can only work towards kindness if it really works for me
It may sound kinda selfish but once upon a time around I was
The worst person you would ever meet
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14. |
Katamari Clouds
02:02
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...Alone now.
I am with words that betray my innocence
I've got no idea
What anything is or how this is here
25000 feet above the Earth
And I want them to be my children
Whom I could cough songs to on my chest
And I'd be making a fairer due with my life
In the last month I spent 45 bucks on video games
From between '96 & '99
But I played each & every one of them
And I'll love them like anything
Now if that's nothing like growing up
Then I guess such a thing just ain't for me -
Eternally dumb & puerile
With a slow start to life what can you expect?
I'll take any little victory that I can get
But when I'm fraught with failures on every fucking side
Like a big break locking to end a little car ride
It's been so long since anything made any sense at all
And it's like nobody has their head anymore
And I am not exempt
I am alone with a thought that keeps me sleeping 'till 10:
That I could be katamari clouds but it really all depends...
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15. |
If I Should Build A Nest
02:06
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This was the tree where my old cats were buried
Their stiff mortis'd bodies being covered by the dirt
But I don't really live there no more
I'd sooner relate to where my feet take me
But if I should build a nest
I'd make it really beautiful – I'd fill it with all these awesome things
A halfway home from just living and responsibility
I'd trash the floor 'round my bed cuz homelife has just been a drag
What are sticks and twigs I collect
But the ruins of every life that I have never lived?
The mud is just my imagination
But I'd sooner relate to a place without any tax rate
Cuz I don't anything to give
But I'll try my very best to not just take
But to build a nest takes a little more than to build a place
If I should build a home
It would be my property and oh what irony
That's the easiest way to get just what I need
Cuz what is worse, the landlord or capital?
It's the question of principle or individuality
Me? I think I just want an easy way...
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Sometimes I wish I could be back I high school
'Cuz it wasn't the fucking time that I could have made it
Spent so much time alone & made myself so unhappy
I imagine an entire rose-colored life galaxy
Fading into cellophane and wrapped up into other bullshit
I feel like quitting before the starting gun and moreover I feel like moving on.
On and on and on and on etc.
Until it's gone
Sometimes I wish I could relive college
Because all that ever exists is regret
And – holy shit – if I can understand that
I'm grown up – game set, end of story, the end.
I may not be like people my age
And at first glance I've flunked for my whole life
But I'll be fine with just a little music & light meals
To make due with nothing is what makes me happy
- I'll rise above myself one day -
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Hi, I'm Little King Trash Mouth. I play ridiculous and sometimes even good songs on guitar and other instruments. I've had too many monikers. Cute firebomb, red roses, ACAB, decolonized and ecological political parity. Most of this music is from manic episodes. ... more
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